| | I got the job! Just in case you guys don't know yet, I got a job in Calgary. So now, all that stands between me and liberation is the Canadian consulate. I will add more info later, but for now, I guess your prayers are needed for my application this Friday. I'll need some sort of proof that I won't be staying in Canada illegally and that I'll have a reason to go back home.. not the U.S., but the Philippines. See, I'm applying for a visitor's visa for now so I could be in Canada while my papers are being processed. So basically, I do intend to stay in Canada longer but it won't be illegally. It's all really difficult to be able to prove to them that I mean well, but as long as I am granted this TRV, I'm practically free as a bird. Please pray that I might be able to produce sufficient proof for the Consulate officer and that he or she may be less strict than these officers usually are.
 Joanna as a memory
I'll be living with the de Walles (Joanna's family) in Lethbridge, Alberta for about 3 months. I can't work or anything, not until I get the green light with the papers re: the job I got. After then, I go to Calgary and start another chapter of my life. It's really weird, I feel like I won't be able to stay in one city (or country) for longer than a couple years at a time. But somehow, I know this one will be a good one. This way I could save up some money and get more stable financially so I could finally pop the question some time later this year.
It's funny how your ties with friends go. Especially when you move around a lot like I do. Having to meet new ones and leave old ones over and over again has really given me a bleak outlook on friendships in general. It's not that I don't treasure my friends, that's not it at all. But the more people I get closer to - and it's easy for me to do this - the more close friends I leave behind and have to maintain contact with. I've promised certain people certain things that I don't really follow through. I've meant to call people here and there and sometimes, I just get plain lazy because in the back of my head (and I feel really bad about this) I know it's not gonna matter.
I know that whether or not I call this person right now, I'll probably mess something up along the way as far as our friendship goes and it's not gonna matter. I know that if I try to form this "band" with this other person, I know it's not gonna happen 'cause I won't be around for long. And more importantly, once I try to make it cool with this one other person, I have to make it cool with every single person like him or her. It's like an obligation, a responsibility.
 I know this is wrong. But I can't help feeling paralyzed in a way. I'm not saying "Hey, I'm so popular, I have so many friends! and I'm skinny and have flawless skin! And don't have any white hair!" No, I'm not saying that. I just have a lot of shared life-changing moments with a lot of special friends, and somehow I just don't know how to be the nice guy I know I need to be and just accommodate everyone's pow needs. haha Don't worry, I'll get over myself soon. I do have a show coming up next week. I'll post more on that soon, but for now, keep the 4th of April free. :)
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